my grandpa is 100% convinced that because i don’t hate poor and black people and think that i shouldn’t judge people in that way im a uwu smol naive bean who just doesn’t understand the world and needs to be protected as a tiny delicate flower, and it’s fucking infuriating all on it’s own, but i know part of it is because im pre t and he still looks at me like his little baby granddaughter whos just a silly little girl, which on top of being misogynistic is even more infuriating and makes me dysphoric as fuck. he will not listen to me when i say that i have met truly evil people that have fucked me over and hurt me and all of them so far have been middle to upper class white people.
the great goddamn irony of it is that he called me yesterday to apologize for saying that im a poor delicate uwu bean for not hating poor and black people because he’s afraid that i’ll stop talking to him if he doesn’t, or that i’ll hate him if he doesn’t, and the wildest thing is that what he’s saying doesnt fucking matter if he doesn’t see me as a mature adult making the conscious choice to be kind to others instead of a misguided child who believes that everyone in the entire world is uwu good and pure all because i dont hate poor and black people.
i think all the time about that one tweet that’s like ‘millennials cant afford traditional shows of maturity like cars and houses so they turn to emotional maturity to define adulthood instead’, and it’s like……do you really think you’re old and wise because you hate poor and black people? do you think that’s mature, to not only say that but look down on me for disagreeing with that? and on top of that, you call me and apologize not for your beliefs, not promising that you’ll change, but because you upset me and you don’t want me to be mad at you? do you think that's what matters here? do you even care that you're completely brushing over the actual, real evil that you just spewed at me while accusing me of being immature for not believing it?
it's so showy, and so superficial, and so goddamn disingenuous. an apology isn't a bandaid to make you feel better about yourself for being shitty.